“Tell me, what is it you plan to do
with your one wild and precious life?” Mary Oliver
Written By Fiona:
This project started as a desire to do something a little different. It was born from the seed of wanting to push myself into an area I hadn’t ventured into yet, on this journey of being a photographer. I’ve been shooting weddings with Bobby for over a year now, and it’s been one of the most rewarding experiences of my life. At the core of each story we have told has been a deep sense of love and humility. I have gone from a place of being terrified to photograph people, to shooting weddings with my love in hand. That’s quite a transition for the mind to get used to. But I have, and I am honoured to be involved in the weaving of so many love stories.
But my thirst has only been growing to move into a personal project that challenged me further. Firstly, I wanted to challenge myself and to push myself out of what I considered my bubble of comfort. The idea of shooting 1 on 1 with another person still gives me the jitters. I worry too much about what they will think rather than what I can create, what they will perceive of my creative process rather than whether I am resonating with what’s in my heart. I wanted to challenge myself rather than let my fears consume me.
It’s been a wonderful process with so many fruits borne on the branches of collaboration and connectivity. Not only do I see a different nature of the friend in the frame of the image, but I am also seeing more of myself in the imagery I am nurturing to grow.
The day with Taeed was a monumental one. The skies were heavily pregnant with clouds rolling in with a slow sway, and my heart was beating fast as I sat in the cafe awaiting the start of this project. Taeed is a Canadian now living in Dubbo, and he flew into Sydney to meet up with friends that weekend, and to be a part of my journey on this project. We ate snippets of numerous desserts whilst sipping on coffee and felt the humid fingers from the outside leaking their way into the cafe. We talked about how we got to where we are now and laughed at the way life plays it’s hand with us all. As we jumped into the car to drive over to the location I had picked out, the skies spoke with a booming growl as it opened its gates to a torrential storm. I will admit right here and now that in my heart, I panicked. The rain was something that Taeed and I spoke about prior to the session but not something I had anticipated with such an intensity. And the rain, She didn’t stop. She kept falling and falling, and wailing. As I battled trying to hold a camera in one hand and I an umbrella in the other, I pushed myself through any tendril of anxiety that tried to penetrate my heart. I’m grateful for Taeed being so incredibly open minded and patient whilst I navigated through the elements. I’m not used to photographing men but it was a challenge I accepted and one that I want to continue growing on.
Taeed, you were wonderfully engaging and I am grateful for our talks on life. Thank you for kick-starting this project with me.